Jack

On Sunday Sept. 2nd, Jack turns 10!  Yes 10!  I can't believe it, where has the time gone.  I guess since I am wondering where the time has gone, I am also pondering how we have come to where we are right now.

Jack and I have been through so much together yet we have come out stronger and closer then I think many 10 year old boys and their moms.  Also, when I look at our life now we are living one filled with blessing beyond what we deserve.

When, Jack was 19 months old, his father decided it was time for him to move on from our marriage.  We divorced, not a nice one, although I can't imagine any divorce is nice.  Then, sold our house and moved in a tiny apartment.  While those years were hard emotionally and financially, I wouldn't change a thing.  It was during that time I began to know the Lord and starting living my Christian walk.  It was also the time I became independent, self reliant, and the best single mom I could be.  Jack and I became really close and I think developed a bond that could only exist because of those circumstances.  

Within these 10 years, We have been through divorce, rebuilding our life, my remarriage, new baby brother, several moves, settling into what I have hoped to be our home for a long time, and just the day to day ups and downs of life.  I have also watched my baby grow into a tween that is kind, compassionate, loving, smart, and has a huge heart for God.  Through him I learned about unconditional love and how God loves can love us unconditionally.  I have also learned that I am not perfect and neither is he but we can make anything work as long as we have open and honest communication.  And, I have seen how God uses people in our lives.  For instance, after my Dad passed away, my faith was really shaken and when times were worst it seemed it was always Jack that some little insightful thing to say that would catch my attention and help me through.  

As now these first 10 years are past, I am so excited to see what life and God have in store for Jack.  I look forward to what kind of man he will grow into over the next 10 years.  As we embark on this journey into the tweens and then into the teens, I pray for his strength, courage, and trust in God, for him, as I think this what is needed to survive in today's world.  I pray for my strength and patience as I know that our relationship will be changing over these years as he grows into an independent young man.  I know there will be growing pains and I will have let go as I won't be able to fix everything anymore. Yet, I pray our relationship will continue to be a strong one.

God bless you, Jack.  I love you :)